Friday Five 12.2.16

I can’t believe it’s the last month of 2016. My “currently” post will be coming next Wednesday so ya’ll can see what I’ve been up to! For now, here’s some Friday Five..

1.  Who else has an issue when they go to Target? You go in there for cheap holiday decorations for your office & you come out spending $50 on a sweater & a long sleeve top & no holiday decorations. PS: I just got this coat & I’m obsessed.

 

2. This quote I found this week really stuck out to me. I want to speak out on something & I was going to wait to put it in my “Year in Review” post in a few weeks, but for whatever reason, I wanted to say it now… My real 2016 was riddled with anxiety. It plagued me in the beginning of the year, got a little better in the middle, & has been consuming me for the last few months of the year. I have tried so hard to continue putting positivity in the world because it is the real me. At my core, I am not the girl that is so overwhelmed with life that I’d rather just lay on my couch & do nothing. But, there are days where I am that girl. In the beginning of the year & now at the end, I am that girl. I started therapy in the beginning of the year when my anxiety was becoming unbearable & now I go once a month (because let’s be real, who can afford to go more often than that) & it helps when I go. But due to my anxiety, I have been putting off starting to practice meditation in hopes that I would be able to control my mind instead of letting it control me. I know that I will pull myself out of the rut that I am in, because I always do. It’s just a matter of time. And it’s a matter of finding inspiration again. I know that I am not alone & that is why I’m putting this in here. There are so many people that deal with crippling anxiety like me & there are so many people that don’t understand what it’s like. To those who don’t understand what it is like, I hope you never do.

I want to be love. I want to embody the essence of love. I want to be everything that love is. I don’t want to seek it. I want to be it. Just love & know nothing else.

 

3. Has anyone been watching Black Mirror? It’s on Netflix & for whatever reason, it starts you off on Season 3, even though the other 2 seasons are available. It is creepy. And weird. But so, so intriguing & good. Sound off in the comments if you’re loving this weird ass show.

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4. That opening a brand new sponge thing is the truth. Pure joy. And instead of House Hunters, my show of choice is Fixer Upper.

 

5.  Me driving in the city on a regular basis:

Sorry for the low key Friday Five this week, ya’ll! I have had a lot on my mind, as you can see in #2. I’m working through it the best that I can! So, I hope you’ll be patient with me & I’ll have another post for you again on Monday! ๐Ÿ™‚

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4 thoughts on “Friday Five 12.2.16

  1. Jessie @ The Acquired Sass says:

    That whole happy as an adult thing is me 100%. Picking the house they choose on House Hunters especially! I’ve actually been working on another adulting post that is pretty similar to that meme. Haha. I may have to steal it!

    And anxiety. I imagine it has to be tough because it can’t be seen. It could be noticed, people could maybe tell a change in demeanor, but it’s not like you broke your arm and have a cast on. Which makes it that much more important that people are talking about it. ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. Gretchen says:

    I love Black Mirror! I think the reason that they start us in season 3 is because it used to be a british show, and Netflix bought the rights to produce the next few seasons. First first two are really good though (my favorite is The Entire History of You).

    I’ve never tried it, but I’ve heard of a service you can buy that you pay a monthly fee and you can talk to a therapist as much as you want. It’s all on the phone though so I’m not sure if seeing a therapist in person is better for you, or if you would benefit from talking to one any time you’re feeling anxious. I forget the name of it but if you listen to podcasts, it’s a big sponsor on a lot of them. Hope that helps and I’m thinking of you! xo

  3. Rebecca Jo says:

    That is be behind EVERY car!!!!!
    I spent almost $400 at Target the past 3 days. I cant stop buying from there.

    Oh friend… I feel you. Anxiety gets a hole on me & its a horrible thing. I fight it daily & some days, I feel like it wins. But its just keeping the fight up against it. Glad you searched out therapy. Hoping we both knock it out of our lives completely in 2017

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